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Nel just IMed me from Tallahassee. Silly girl.
Go practice being a college kid!!!
A friend suggested that I hook up skype when she leaves.
I will. I will also be mindful that this is a new season of letting her grow.
It's the most beautiful, rainy Sunday in south Florida.
The sauce is on.
Naptime!!
Today reminds me of when I was a child and we would go to Grandma's house after church, take our pretty dresses off and climb into her big bed in our slips to nap. (so as not to mess up our "good" clothes). Often dinner was home-made spaghetti with meatballs -- did jar sauce even exist?? Sometimes Uncle John's homemade kielbasa or Grandma's fresh pierogis or golumpki were the fare. But nothing compared to Grandma's homemade pies. Apple, lemon meringue, chocolate cream, banana cream, coconut cream. Warm memories.
Jhinel left today for Tallahassee. She'll experience campus life for a few days. And although they, "can't stand each other", she and Angii sat next to each other in church this morning and were quite affectionate in that "teenaged sister, sibling rivalry" sorta way.
It feels like a trial run to me but I didn't cry.
I was awakened by some "stirrings" at 1:00 a.m.
Saw my girl coming down the hall, and told her to get to bed Puh-leeeeezzzzzzzz
She replied, "I got in"
My girl is a Seminole!
A neldream realized.
Yay!
Last nights dinner was two slices of bread with (your choice, mayo or mustard) deli meats and cheese, a bottle of water, banana if you please or cheetos if you want. On a beach in the dark with family and a friend. It was waaayyyyyyyy kewl!!
oh! and there was a space shuttle involved too.
who forgot the flashlight in the car??
Sometimes our Father surprises us with such wonderful and special gifts. A friend who has meant so much, who has shared laughter and love and joy and pain is allowed back into our lives.
Father, help me to love more like you.
Help me to be a better friend this time.
and thank you.
I remember as a new mom, the excitement and joy at sharing the wonders of the world with this new precious and beloved lil person.
I remember feeling at times, that it was like a "do over" of my own childhood moments and yet even better because I was sharing it with my own child. It was as if we had "new eyes" to experience God's creation.
These days, she is anxiously awaiting so much. Colleges, scholarships, summer jobs. Fervent prayers envelop all of our graduating youth.
Last night an Email came. The dreamed of summer job. WAITLISTED. I see that wrinkled forehead look, the one that is disappointment, why wouldn't God want this for her?
I say it although she has heard it a million times, I say it even though she already knows it. I say it with tears in my heart for her. As the words come out, I wonder if it sounds rote, insensitive. "If it is God's will for you to be there this summer, you will be there. If it is not his will, then he has other plans for your life for this time. You can trust him". I'm not sure that it's enough. But it is all I have. It is who I am.
I have learned that God's will is better. He is faithful in all things. His grace is sufficient.
Sometimes we ask for things and His answer is yes.
Sometimes we ask for things and His answer is no.
Sometimes we ask for things and He says, wait.
I think the "wait" one is the hardest.
Ask, Seek, Knock.
we smiled together when a peer messaged the same response as I had conveyed (she has beautiful friends too). Sometimes you can hear it better when it's not your own mom.
DEAR GOD:
I want to thank You for what you have already done. I am not going to wait until I see results or receive rewards; I am thanking you right now. I am not going to wait until I feel better or things look better; I am thanking you right now. I am not going to wait until people say they are sorry or until they stop talking about me; I am thanking you right now.. I am not going to wait until the pain in my body disappears ; I am thanking you right now. I am not going to wait until my financial situation improves; I am going to thank you right now. I am not going to wait until the children are asleep and the house is quiet; I am going to thank you right now. I am not going to wait until I get promoted at work or until I get the job; I am going to thank you right now. I am not going to wait until I understand every experience in my life that has caused me pain or grief; I am thanking you right now. I am not going to wait until the journey gets easier or the challenges are removed;
I am thanking you right now. I am thanking you because I am alive. I am thanking you because I made it through the day's difficulties. I am thanking you because I have walked around the obstacles.
I am thanking you because I have the ability and the opportunity to do more and do better.
I'm thanking you because FATHER, YOU haven't given up on me.
God is just so good, and he's good all the time. THANK HIM.
Yeah, funny things happen at my house.
Blogs get "hacked" into and embarrassing video's appear for all the world to see.
This morning I'm taking a shower, washing my hair. I look up to see graffiti all over the tile!!!
Someone (obviously) "borrowed" the granddaughters soap crayons, "Have A Great Day".
I smile
I laugh
I almost cry
The people I live with are such a blessing.
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