The "C" word

It's quite interesting how others respond to the "C" word.

It seems the typical scenario goes something like this:
First there's a long pause, a hesitancy, as though they are weighing HOW to reply. I have even found myself in the position of reassuring. I'm not so special or unique. I'm not a victim. Every day people deal with cancer.

It's okay to say the word, it's okay to talk about cancer, It's not a death sentence and even if it were, we can still enjoy today. We can still have joy. We can even LAUGH together.

There is blessing, even here!
Praise God in all things.

Wednesday

Today, I just felt like smiling at folk.

Today. A few moments and a kiss shared with my favorite guy and his wife (hehe).

Beautiful Nel

My Nel

This morning, my teen asked me if I was gonna go off my anti-depressant now that I'm no longer taking the interferon........................

Well, if I have any say in the matter, the answer is NO!!!

Think I'd like the opportunity to use them during the cancer stuff, ya know??

AWWWWWWWWWWWWW

Dear Family and Friends,

I just got back from my clinic (Hep C). I was "the problem child" this morning. In fact, I have been discontinued from the drug trial because of the new diagnosis of cancer. I'm a bit emotional right now as I was hoping to finish the study............wondering why I've had to be so sick the last 10 weeks and then have to quit.
I trust my Abba Father in every detail of my life. He has the answers that I do not. He sees what I cannot. He is Good. He is God.

LOL........I'm looking forward to getting some chores and laundry done this weekend! Since I won't be taking an interferon injection on Friday my energy level should be better.
PET/CT scan on Tuesday.

Praise Him in all things!

Dawn

Oncologist

The doctor spent almost three hours with me today.

There will be further tests before we can determine if surgery is an option. Plan B would be radiation therapy with chemo.

CT/PET scan is next Tuesday.

I love yer prayers!!!!!!!
God is good. He is faithful.

I Shoulda Took a Picture!

Very frequently, enroute to the schools, one of us will observe that the teen and tween are wearing the same color shirts............ewwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today, they both came out yelling, "Mom, tell her to change!!!!!!!!!"
"I was dressed first"
"but I had mine picked out last night!"
They were both wearing above the knee skinny denim cut-offs and the same hoodie sweatshirt from AE.

Nobody changed (after all they are at different schools), but their mom started her day with a chuckle.

PTL!!! I'm a Loser! :-)

I shoulda kept the "skinny jeans" (lost 13 pounds in 10 weeks and so far I've kept my hair!)

LOL.............. I pulled one over on my co-workers...........they finally decided to revisit the "biggest loser" game................and I'm winning!

sick, rested all weekend.
18 more injections. Oncologist on Wednesday.

Praise Him in all things.

The Week in Review!

Most days, it's a chore to journal anymore.
Though, the thoughts and prayers are on my heart.
Earlier this week, I was contemplating this journey. For so many years, I prayed for God to wave his magic wand and just make this germ go away.

He chose not to, and I am realizing that even in this there is peace, there is sanctification. There is gratitude for the lessons being lived. A tempering of faith that would not have happened if the miracle had been an instantaneous healing. I'm too tired to move, but instead of complaining, I LOOK into the faces of others around me. I wonder what their journey is. I smile a bit longer at the bank teller and thank her by name.

The drugs create symptoms and sensations in my body, instead of being frustrated, I understand, these weird things going on are proof of my healing. I thank God.

On Wednesday, a call from my gynecologist - cervical cancer.
Father God, I am really, really certain that this is just TOO much.
I am still in the processing (grieving) of this new news.

Please pray for us. Please pray for my girls.

A Quickie......

Surgery went well on Friday. Some pain, been in bed most of the weekend. Pathology report should be back in about a week.

Had clinic on Friday, as of 6 week bloods, my viral load was at 1,230. (At the beginning of the trial it was at 1.3 million, and at 4 weeks was at 80,000. I started protease inhibitor at 4 weeks.)

Praise the Lord. Praise him in all things.

Twenty More......

slept from 8pm friday to 6:30pm saturday.

headache, fatigue, etc.

Surgery is Friday the 11th.

#3

I'm so proud of my girls when they do the right thing...............even when it's not the "cool" thing to do.

Congratulations to beautiful Angela who was initiated into the National Junior Honor Society on Thursday.

New Theory

Since the bathroom is the only room that I really frequent these days, if i keep it really really spotless, it won't matter what the rest of the house looks like?

HeHe