Thanks for Letting Me Go

Tonight a surprise visit from Jhinel and Emilio.
"aren't you supposed to be in Tallahassee?!"
Pizza.  "catching up"
"I'm glad you let me go, mom"
She was a momma's girl, overprotected perhaps and overprotective definitely!  She remembers things her kid sister doesn't; she helped to raise an infant niece for a time, she worried as she saw her older sister make dangerous choices.  My interferon treatments and Cancer made her too responsible, these things are compounded when your mom is a single.

I knew that she needed to go away to college, I wanted her to have the opportunity to "act her age" and learn life on her own terms.  As I hear these words, "I'm glad you let me go"  I remind her that I MADE her go away to college.

that's not what she meant. 
and then I'm glad too.  It's hard letting go of one whom  you love so very much.  I won't alway's approve of her choices in life, sometimes I'll know better ways.  I think the best that I do now is to trust her to make her own choices and to let her know that she is loved - no matter what. 

And to pray mother prayers.

First Weekend Home

(finally) this week is done.


after a thirteen hour day today, and a much too busy and long week, tonight I came home and crashed..........

on the couch,

in my jammies....



a very aggressive and persistent knock on the door...WHAT??!!!



I open it to find my Nel!

she decided to surprise us
a seven hour trip on a bus for her first weekend home from college.

I am truly blessed. Thank you, Father.

October 10, 2009

Tallahassee

Friday Night

AT 12:21 a.m. southbound on I-95, me with wet pants and Angii half dressed, she noted the numerical palindrome. I tellya!!! I'm BLESSED!!

That was the ending of an unusual and wonderful day.

Plan A was that I would be out of town attending an Emmaus Walk.

Plan B was that we would be enroute to a camping trip with our church family.

There was no Plan C. But I had already scheduled the day off from work, so I fiqured I might as well schedule that mammogram. After that I went over to the lab for my "annual" blood/urine. filled up the tank then "swung by" the nail place where i used to go to......no line. got a pedi. Ran over to the optometrist to schedule an eye exam and they had an opening then. ALL this before NOON. wow!

Home for lunch and a nap.

I'd gotten an email from a texas girlfriend that she was going to be in town for a couple of days.......was going to a favorite dive in the old town.........We met for wings and a beer. a dozen or so of us, some we hadnt seen in a couple of years, others became new acquaintances. And of course, we "ran into" several others along the way. I asked Angii if she wanted to take a ride over to the beach.......as we were saying our good-byes, others decided to join us on that favorite beach. It ended up being a "best friday night", it was amazing how almost perfect strangers felt like friends. And that is how I ended up with wet pants, and Angii half dressed driving down the interstate at 12:21 a.m.

NOTE to self: next time you go out to dinner with susan, bring bathing suit, towel and bug spray.